Create Like Crazy

New on Wanderthief: Broken or fixed?

New on Wanderthief: Broken or fixed?

Wanderthief isn’t over yet, but it’s headed in that direction. I’m working on some kind of a conclusion for this project, an effort that has been part of my thinking and my identity for more than a third of my life. In the meantime, I have a lot of feelings about what it is and what it has become, and what it will be like to live the rest of my life without it. I have a lot of feelings about everything. Wasn’t that the point?

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New on Wanderthief: Hard Compromise

New on Wanderthief: Hard Compromise

I actually wrote something else entirely when I sat down to this month’s Create Like Crazy essay. But what came out was more than Wanderthief. It was work closer to what I’ve wanted to make for a very long time but never quite knew how. That felt good, and also confusing, and also confronting, because after those few thousand words I knew I had to sit down and write something else, a few thousand more, and make them worth it. So I dug in deep and I found this, a little truth that was as scary to tell as it was an honest thing for me to explore right now. I hope you enjoy it. As always, thank you for reading.

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New on Wanderthief: Ambivalent

New on Wanderthief: Ambivalent

I arrived in Granada a few days ago, and in my first Wanderthief from this trip to Spain I wonder what I’m doing here, what I’m looking for, and what I want. What’s home, anyway? Does it have to be a place? Life on the road feels correct to me, but there’s definitely something missing, another something correct, and the two valences are pulling me in opposite directions.

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New on Wanderthief: Instant Gratification

New on Wanderthief: Instant Gratification

I’ve been thinking a lot about instant gratification over the last few months. Digging into my own process in the troughs between publication of one piece or another, I’ve been looking at my addiction to the high I get from sending off a work. The natural neurochemicals aren’t exactly illicit drugs, but it’s an addiction nonetheless. I wrote about this kind of wish-fulfillment merry-go-round in this month’s Create Like Crazy essay, and I’m sorry in advance for what I’ll do to you at the end of this one.

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New on Wanderthief: Some Ugly Truths

New on Wanderthief: Some Ugly Truths

In this month’s Create Like Crazy newsletter essay, I wrote about a detour I’ve recently inadvertently taken with my writing. I lost my way a bit and got distracted by wanting to be published and wanting to be read, by wanting to be liked and wanting to be accepted. I told the truth and tackled it the only way I know how. Here’s to what’s up next.

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New on Wanderthief: To Be Seen

New on Wanderthief: To Be Seen

I met a couple of famous people last night and they kept using my name. They dropped my name in every sentence, casually, naturally, as if we were old friends. If it was nothing more than a strategy they have developed over the years, then it’s a strategy that works. Is that as personal as an interaction can be? A name, an unchosen word to which we attach decades of identity, a marker of who we are that, for most of us, lasts from birth until death without ever changing?

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New on Wanderthief: From the Spine

New on Wanderthief: From the Spine

I hesitated to publish this month's Create Like Crazy essay, which ended up being the best kind of irony. My imposter syndrome got loud, along with all my insecurities—What if it's too direct? Too personal? What if they don't like it? What if they don't like me? That hesitation seemed as good a reason as any to gather up my courage, straighten out, and hit send. Maybe we're not meant to make ourselves smaller for the timid masses.

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New on Wanderthief: Say Yes and See What Happens

New on Wanderthief: Say Yes and See What Happens

Big things are happening, and even though I'm not entirely sure where it's all heading, I think a lot of the changes happening in my life right now—personally, professionally, psychically—are at the very least related to all my saying "yes" of late. Just going for it, and seeing what happens. Showing up. That's what this month's Create Like Crazy newsletter essay was all about, and I'm grateful to everyone who's been writing me to say they could relate. Saying yes is easy. Then you have to deliver.

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New on Wanderthief: Life in Both Directions

New on Wanderthief: Life in Both Directions

For this month's Create Like Crazy newsletter I wrote an essay about knowing I don't know much. At a certain point in my young adult life I would have been infuriated by anyone treating me like a child. But getting on in years has only served to prove how little I know, how little I'll ever know, and how ok that really is.

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